The Making Of...

Ben is my little theologian. He has once again sparked a new conversation with me tonight about God. He is five years old and is so curious about the mysteries of God. Tonight as we were driving home from a friend's house, he was pretty quiet in the back seat (which is very out of the ordinary for him). I could tell he was thinking about something, but I didn't want to interrupt the rare silence that I enjoy (a little too much at times). When he finally broke the silence, he asked me, "Mommy, how did God make himself?" I responded by saying, "Well, He's GOD! He didn't have to make himself, He just always existed." Ben responded, "...but how?" I responded, "I don't know honey. God has just always been here." Of course, that sparked my curiosity as well. We live in a world that relies heavily on the timing of things. We mark our calendars with upcoming events, we record births, we have clocks that tell us what time to eat, sleep, work, play, etc...we count the days of our lives. So, the thought of the beginning of God, which is infinite, is hard to grasp, isn't it? I myself just can't comprehend it.

This brought me to the realization that God really really really loves us. He has been here since the beginning, He created everything in and out of sight and He remains the same. He doesn't give up on loving us. Think about it...God has been here since forever ago, which is more than generations and generations and years and years and years and He STILL remains the same ALL DAY LONG because He loves us.

As a parent, I try really hard to show my boys the love of God. We pray every night before going to bed. We sing praises before we say goodnight. I try to teach them what God has taught me, but then there are times like tonight when my children will teach me about God or spark my curiosity about His mysterious ways. I love that. I love learning from my children. I love that God uses them to help me understand Him more intimately.

So, in a nutshell...
-Ben asks me how God made himself
-I answer Ben by saying God just always existed
-I start thinking about what that really means, which blows my mind away
-I realize God must really love me if He's willing to be around for that long and stick around
-I gained new insight today from my 5 year old son

I hope Ben continues to ask questions, that his curiosity for the Lord will be never-ending. I hope he knows how much God loves him as he grows up and finds answers for himself. I hope Nate will do the same. Right now he just wants to know what things are... "Mama? Wa 'dis?" Both my boys are such curious little guys. I love it. I don't want this to ever end...

And that's the making of this mother. Thank you Lord :)